Spirits screaming in the night!

I haven't blogged in a while, been kinda crazy busy. I miss spilling my guts out though...its kinda therapeutic. So what prompted this particular blog...Makayla did. Last night after she went to bed, i was playing words with friends on my phone and it was late. I heard her scream "mooooommmmm"...i waited a second...nothing else, i must be hearing things. then a few seconds later.."mmooooooooooooooommmm!" i flew out of bed went to her room, only to find her sound asleep. I whispered (so not to scare her) "Makayla, you OK?" no answer. I shook her gently...MJ you asleep? she rolls her eyes open with difficulty,"what? whats wrong?" i asked, "did you scream for me?"..."umm no, i was asleep". Then she lifts her head up and says, "mom, my legs are numb",WHAT??"mom, they are cold and tingly" i said, "maybe you were laying on them wrong", she says "mom, i was laying on my side, just like when you woke me up." then she says see needs to check her sugars, somethings wrong.BS=46. at 12:30am...46! just 2hrs ago she was 216. ok, treat and check, treat and check...finally..126. We talked about who screamed for me..it wasnt her. It was her guardian angels. We believe they are Grandpa R. and Grandma N. Makayla says papa knew her sugars were low and that she needed me. I know that God is always watching over her. Chris says it was a "quickening of the spirit"..what ever it was, I am so grateful they screamed for me...and NO it was not the neighbors or anything outside, it was with out a doubt, in my bedroom and hall that the call came from. but the emotion that stirs within me is not "who or what" screamed..but WHAT IF I did not hear anything?? That's what Makayla asked me, with tears streaming down her face as we tried to settle back down to go to sleep. What if i had not come in to wake her? would she have died? I don't know. I don't have that answer and to even have to contemplate that is so frightening.All I know is that we are not alone. Christ is with us, even when we sleep. I have to believe that as long as i listen with my heart and soul, I will hear HIM when ever i need to. When ever SHE needs me to. DIABETES SUCKS BIG FAT DONKEY BALLS AND I HATE IT!!!!!!!sleep is not something i do well. Makayla fell asleep while i was holding her. I laid there, praying, staring, crying and every time i dozed off, I woke with a startle to every movement and sound. Will this ever get easier?? Well after talking with our fabulous diabetes coach..I dont think so, its a forever changing animal, always different, unpredictable like a rabid dog and even more dangerous. BUT we will have good days, times when things are going smooth and we will appreciate those days like no other! and as for the rest...we will take them one day at a time and do it hand in hand with Christ and all those family and friends who love us and support us. Its an emotional, physical and spiritual roller coaster, unfortunately we are tied to this ride and cant get off. Christ never said life would be easy..just that we would never be alone. I love my little girl, she amazes me..she is strong and brave and loving. She is my hero, for facing her giant EVERYDAY, and most those days with a giggle and a smile! I can learn alot from her.